Goodbye beavers

Goodbye Frank and Gordon!



I just heard that you're going back to the forest. I would send you guys text messages and would have loved to receive them back from you but Bell (the stupid company who you probably got sick of) started charging me for incoming text messages.


I don't blame you guys for leaving. Bell's getting on my nerves too.


Adios Amigos,



Caroline

waiting game

I never heard back from the people out in Fort McMurry so I guess that means I'm still on the job hunt for Sept. the hardest part of being in teaching has been the waiting game.

It feels almost impossible to get a position right now which temps me to want to go overseas.

Faced with a challenge.

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I was just offered a great job. I should be excited and yet I'm scared out of my mind. I was offered a teaching position with Fort McMurray public school (in a publicly funded Christian school), it has a high First nations population and a high ESL population. Plus, on top of all that it pays 70K to start.

Yet, I sit here and wonder if I'm cut out for it. I know for sure that I'm not the same Christian I was years ago. I've lost the passion over the years. I still trust God and believe Jesus has redeemed my sins but I know that I don't do the same things I use to do. I'm not into the whole running around town telling people about Jesus any more thing. Not to say that I would never do it again it's just harder now that's all. I'm rusty!

The idea of working with first nations people excites me. I've wanted to do that since I was in high school but I didn't know how to approach it.

Additionally, working with students with high ESL needs is also one of those things that make me happy. I love the idea that I could work with them allow them to develop their language skills and overall that sounds great too.

The challenge comes with what I do with Craig. When I first thought about the opportunity he said he would think about it. Now, after some thinking he realized it's not somewhere that he can move. I know in my heart that it makes sense for us to just carry out a long distance relationship but here's the thing.... what if God's just calling me away to get seperate me from Craig. Would God be so cruel? Why do I always feel like I need to choose? Why can't I just have both?

If I stay here in Toronto am I ever going to have the same opportunities that this adventure will offer me? I know that I'm not going to be able to teach in a Catholic school here and that's difficult for me to accept. I set out in this profession years ago with a vision and right now, I can't see how that vision is going to be fulfilled here in Toronto.

So many what if's here. Must pray... must pray...

God's provisions

I feel like the luckiest girl in the world right now! I just realized that I got another scholarship from York! Yeah!!! This means that I might actually have money to start paying off my OSAP loan.

I was starting to think that maybe I would have to get a second job so I can pay off the loan and now maybe I don't. Mind you it would be nice to have money.

so I realized that I might not get marreid as soon as I thought I would. Which sucks but I guess that alright.

The Sweetest Thing

Isn't it great when one of your good friends decides to get married? I'm overly excited by the fact that Julie and Justin are finally getting married! I'm so happy! Whoo hoo! Congrats guys!

The Letter

Last night Craig and I had a chance to speak to his Priest. He told me that I wouldn't be able to get a letter from him becuase of the fact that I'm not Catholic. I don't know why I even asked him. I mean I kind of knew he wouldn't give it to me but I figured I'd have to ask anyways.

We talked about a lot of things. He mentioned how there are still differences in our fatih even though they're not as big as they use to be.

He mentioned how he didn't think I should convert just because of the fact that I could be issued a letter if I did.

The guy's cool. I gotta admit that. I like the fact that he said that I shouldn't do something just because the school board wanted it. I respect the fact that he said that it's ultimately up to me to decide if I want to convert or not but that converting means that I have to renounce everything from the protestant faith.

Last night the coversation of marriage also came up. We asked the Priest if the Catholic church would be able to marry Craig and I. He said that it's possible but we wouldn't be able to have communion at the service since if we did some of the people who attended the mass might feel offended that they couldn't take communion and he didn't want to exclude anyone. The priest mentioned that if the two of us were to get married it would be better if we did it in the Catholic church becuase that way Craig's faith would still be validated. He also made it clear that if we got married it would be marriage from that point on till death caused Craig and I to part. To which I made the comment, "Isn't that a good thing?" and he laughed it off and said, "let's see what you say 10 years from now."

Anyhow... I'm kind of bumed about the whole letter thing. I really wanted to teach in the school system. Not becuase I want to convert but I want the kids to realize that their faith in Christ doesn't just mean having to follow a bunch of rules but a strong commitment to following Christ becuase of the relationship they have with the Lord.

As we ate dinner yesterday I started thinking about the possiblity that maybe if I teach in the public school I could introduce faith. I know that if I do it I have to be respectful to all faith groups and that I can't be preachy but maybe that's the way to go.

Ok I'm rambling. Time to lesson plan again.

Expiry Dates

So I've got a confession to make. I've started eating products with past due expiry dates. Up to about a week ago I was freaked out with eating products that had a date that passed. I seriously didn't try it because I didn't want to die from it! I mean can you imagine... "It's unfortunate Lynn ate that pasta that had that November 2007 expiry date".

Anyhow... Craig's dad put it this way... "You aren't going to die at midnight just because you ate that yogurt that had today's date on it".